He’s Leaving Me

By Ken in Fatherhood on Monday, April 7, 2008
  • 26 comments

Last Thursday, I took Spiderboy to kindergarten orientation. I hated it. First, they separated us as soon as we entered the prison. My son was escorted to the kindergarten cell and I was told to join the rest of the adult prisoners in Cell Block D. It was so exciting, I almost fell asleep. The Prison Warden went over the latest torture techniques, which I already knew (the Little Princess attends the same prison and my niece also served her sentence there when she lived with us). During the whole presentation, I was wondering if my son was tormenting the other inmates.

I’m going to miss the little guy when he starts kindergarten in the Fall. I’ll probably miss him more than I missed his older sister when she started kindergarten. Unlike the Little Princess, my son is still very attached to me. I’m at the center of his universe — the last person he sees at night, the first person he sees in the morning. When he goes to school, I will still be an important part of his life. But when he’s at school, it’ll feel like he has been transported to another universe — one where I don’t exist. And it’ll be full of rainbows, candy, and superhero action figures.

Don’t get me wrong here. I do want him to go to school, learn, meet new friends, and chase girls. And I do want him to grow up, start his own family, and experience the joys of fatherhood. Really, I do. But I also want him to always be the adorable boy that he is today. Weird, isn’t it? I want him to grow up and I also want him to stay the same. Can’t exactly have it both ways, can I?

son at school
Related Posts with Thumbnails

26 Comments

  1. Amy says:

    THanks for the honest post…TOo cute!

  2. yoshi says:

    Yeah, I’m sure all parents feel the same way! Although I’ve seen a trend where once they become teenagers, you just want them to leave already. LOL

  3. I feel the same way about my son; still, he’s already almost nine-years-old, and we’re still joined at the hip. Maybe he’ll stay my little boy just a wee bit longer.

  4. Boy oh boy I feel your pain! My little guy is “official” this fall too!

    Hugs,
    Holly

  5. Chris H says:

    If only they did stay adorable little boys/girls… darn it. I love that they have to go to school!!! But then, I’m a grumpy tired old Mother of 8.

  6. peepnroosmom says:

    If only they could stay little forever. Always your little guy. Them going to school is sad, but necessary. Roo starts preschool in the fall. I’m going to cry.

  7. Leslie says:

    Julia’s headed to preschool in the Fall. You summed up the way I feel perfectly.

  8. kris says:

    I would have given anything to have a dad exactly like you. :O)

  9. Danielle. says:

    Ahhhhhh Now I can put a name to the face….!

    I so know what you mean about the “Kindy” thing….I never sleep a wink the night before….

  10. I’m doing this with my boy tomorrow. Thanks for the thoughts! He’s my youngest so it really will be sad.

    • We’ll be very sad too when our youngest starts school. She actually wants to start school now. She had a big meltdown when she couldn’t go to kindergarten orientation with her big brother.

  11. No you can’t have it both ways, but I think that is truly how all parents feel! I know I do.

  12. Kay says:

    I think we all go through that stage … it is hard … I dread the day I will go through this myself.

  13. Sunrunner says:

    No it’s not weird. I’m feeling the same way. Zachary has his kindergarten stuff tomorrow if he feels good enough… we’d probably be in trouble if he went in pukey.

  14. Jason says:

    It’s the most heart-wrenching thing in the world when you give up the responsibility to your most-valued possession to complete and total strangers.

Leave a Comment

Custom Search

Subscribe to Daddy Forever

Enter your email address to sign up for our free newsletter:  

You can also sign up for Daddy Forever's blog feed.